Our Deepest Fear

A friend emailed the positively confrontational text below by Marianne Williamson earlier today. Somehow reminded me of Nelson Mandela and my own insecurities simultaneously?

(Nelson Mandela)

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – by Marianne Williamson, from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles.

Had a plenty better day though.

(Stellenbosch University Gym outdoor 33.3m swimming pool)

With some fins on I managed a 40min kick/swim without headache and more comfort in my shoulder than Monday’s attempt. Not exactly the test set I’ll be thinking of on race morning, but it had my excited today.

And joined Naude’s strength workout (the bit I could manage) before a sensational spread at Greengate bidding Fraser the Cartmell farewell from Stellenbosch for this summer. Perhaps I’ll get to see Fraser in the US during May.

And between that I toiled away at my greatest fears. Shuffling uncomfortably between smaller familiarities and expansive dreams.